I coped so well, very well, I walked with my head held high even in the face of adversity.

I don't have an ounce of jealousy in me, because there are so many different people. You can't eat everything, see everything, visit everything, read everything, and ultimately you can't have everything. 

I marched through life on a bridge on shaky ropes. "I walked as light as a butterfly and as heavy as an elephant" and I finally crossed this long bridge.

There are times when you can't hit the wall and hanging around your tail doesn't help. That's why I have never been indifferent to human suffering. I fed and clothed the homeless, and all my life I was effusive about the needs of others, my loved ones, distant friends and family. The world is not slowing down and people, with the pace of life and the race for a "better" existence, sometimes become insensitive to what is happening around them. I will never understand or accept this, although I know that there are different worlds and it is obvious that they will never merge.

I never asked for anything, I had no such expectations or need.

I was respected and respected for this by truly great artists, my mentors - Łomnicki, Zapasiewicz, Łapicki, Hanuszkiewicz. I don't regret my choices. I was filled with love, hope and joy of life, like Wilma in The Flintstones, whom I dubbed supposedly the best in the world. I am a retired Polish theater and film actress. After hard work for 40 years, it amounts to €500 per month.

 Until I get a decent job, I have to calm down somehow and not damage my morale.

Here is my short confession. 

Due to the perfidious and thoroughly thought-out action of a cruel psychopath, a fraudster on a global scale, after more than two decades together, I found myself on a mental, moral, health (after three blockages) and existential abyss. I unexpectedly lost all my life's work, my apartment and my beloved job because of this outstanding fraudster and hoaxer who suddenly fled from justice somewhere in Mexico. I was close to death. I have absolutely no living family, I landed far from my dearest place and city on earth so that I could literally survive the coming time and survive the deadly pain, anxiety and fear. I found a very cheap apartment in Spain, where I now live without any support. I adopted two poor and abandoned kittens. It is incomprehensible that sometimes life turns out differently, as we wanted and strived for with all our strength. Out of sight, out of mind, it happens that suddenly people think you're trash and you start to believe it. They don't want to look us in the face because they are afraid to see their reflection.

I feel rejected, lonely, financially sunk, and in the throes of crippling depression. The enormous stress caused bruxism so severe that I lost my beautiful teeth in my upper jaw. The dentist had to pull them out and now I have no teeth. The helplessness is terrible, even screaming won't help.

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