Help me get through depression treatment until I can stand on my own feet

Hi, I'm Maciej.

I'm reaching out at an important but difficult moment in my life - and for the first time in a long while, I'm writing this with hope, not despair.

After nine hospitalizations - it's finally working

I recently left a psychiatric hospital after my ninth stay. This time, though, the treatment is actually working. Instead of another cycle of crisis, I'm experiencing real improvement for the first time. This is a fragile but crucial stage in my recovery - and I don't want to lose it because I lack basic support during this period.

I'm now waiting to be admitted to a specialized treatment center for depression and anxiety. The waiting time is 3-6 months. I'm no longer in crisis care, but I'm also not yet stable enough to fully support myself.

I carry years of long-term trauma, molesting by my own grandma, abuse, and bullying that have affected my mental health. These experiences don't define me - today I'm fully focused on rebuilding my life and independence.

What I already have - and what I still need

I have safe housing secured - a friend helped me cover the cost of a hostel, and I'm deeply grateful for that. What I'm missing are basic day-to-day essentials:

• Food
• Essential prescription medication

I'm currently taking:

• Asentra (sertraline) 200mg daily - antidepressant
• Lamotrigine - mood stabilizer
• Prestarium - heart medication
• Betaxolol - heart rate and blood pressure regulation
• Budesonide - asthma treatment
• a liver-protective medication

These medications are essential for keeping me stable while I wait for further treatment.

A light at the end of the tunnel: I have a job

I've managed to find employment - an important step forward for me. But I won't receive my first paycheck until the 10th of next month, and it will only be around €350-400 - an amount that covers just part of my room costs.

I'm not asking for long-term support. I only need help for this short, transitional period - until I start earning and move into the next stage of treatment.

Transparency

I understand that trust online needs to be earned. I'm happy to privately share anonymized hospital documentation and my discharge summary with anyone who'd like to verify my situation.

Why this matters

For the first time in a very long time, I can see a real path to a stable life. I just need a little support to safely get through this in-between stage - before I'm standing on my own feet.

Every amount - even the smallest - genuinely counts and brings me closer to stability.

Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for reading my story, and for any support you're able to give.

Maciej