I've been living across the world from the most important person I have ever met. We have been together for a year and a half and we have not been able to visit eachother once. I know how much it hurts me and how much it hurts my girlfriend to be so far apart and while we do communicate via text and video calls, it's not enough. There is always that sinking feeling in our hearts that we are not close enough and I am afraid I will not be able to be there with her before things turn worse. My girlfriend is suffering from anemia and while I know it is quite common, other health issues make it all the harder for her.

All I've ever wanted ever since I met her is to finally be able to hold her. It is excruciating to lobe someone and not be able to be there for them and comfort them when they need you because you live in the middle of butt fuc nowhere. All I want is to be with her at least once before I can do it myself on my own but I just can't do that alone right now. She is genuinely the most wonderful human being on the planet and she doesn't deserve to hurt because I'm not there yet. I'm nit even doing this for myself. I'm doing it for her, for us so please, I know how it sounds but every bit helps, literally every bit. I was hoping to be there with her for her birthday on the 19 of this month but I can't but I can at least hope there is a chance to see her still