my story is a bit strange... I don't know if I will be understood at all.

there are many teenagers in the world who have problems. I fought with myself and suffered from mental illnesses - anxiety, depression, social phobia. at an early age I got into banned substances...almost died but in my twenties I was in prison.

suddenly I had no one, only a couple of loving people.

some leave me and I couldn't even say goodbye...

I'm home after years and it's hard to live a normal life. but i want! I'll try it. I have two jobs... but I have debts left in my life. I don't know when I will be able to pay it back. The salaries in my country are small and I try to earn constantly. if I'm not working, I'm looking for "free money" and questionnaires on the web. I'm approaching my thirties and I'm starting to think that I'll never experience the beauty of normal life again. I have dreams but I don't know how to proceed...

I would like to get out of debt. and not be constantly exposed to danger. I would like to visit a foreign country, fall in love, draw...

at least live a normal life.

I don't know if anyone wants to help a person like me because this is a problem I made myself... but I really didn't want to. I want to live and make everyone who has left me proud of me.

I don't know if anyone will help me, but you can't imagine how happy it would make me. with every gift, I think that there is someone who helped me and is in another part of the world.

(smile even when life is sometimes difficult. it can always be worse. there is always someone who is worse off...)

🖤🖤🖤