I need your help – my last resort

I am turning to you because I don’t know what to do anymore. My life has spiralled into a situation from which I can no longer find a way out on my own. I am carrying a debt of 45,000 euros, which weighs more heavily on me every day. Behind this sum lies a story that has almost destroyed me.

It all began a few years ago, when I was young and full of hope. I thought I had the right partner by my side, but instead I was taken advantage of. He was in financial trouble, and I wanted to help. I wanted to save him. I took out a loan back then so that he could get back on his feet and we could lead a normal life together. The loan was in my name, and I trusted that we would manage it together. But once he had got his life back on track, he left me to deal with everything. The debts, the responsibility and the pain.

But that wasn’t all. Even before I’d taken out that loan, I was already facing one of the hardest decisions of my life. I was pregnant. My child, my everything, could have been my anchor in all that chaos. But my partner felt that, in our situation, we couldn’t afford a child, and I believed him. I decided against having my child because I thought it would be best for both of us. But that decision haunts me to this day.

That abortion broke my heart, and the loan pulled the rug out from under me. I’ve fought hard. I tried to cope with everything on my own, but I’ve now reached a point where I don’t know what to do next. The debts are overwhelming, and the emotional burden is wearing me down. I’m afraid of losing my home, and even more afraid of losing myself in this darkness.

I have learnt from my mistakes. I now know that I let myself be taken advantage of back then, that I believed false promises. But that doesn’t change the fact that I am in this situation today. Alone, overwhelmed and desperate. I need help.

If you can help me, whether with a small donation or simply by sharing my story, I would be eternally grateful. I don’t want to give up. I want to get back on my feet and lead a life where I am no longer tormented by fear and debt.

Thank you for listening to me. Thank you for being there.

With all my heart

Alina