Restore My Hope to Survive: Abandoned, Ill, Battered, Broke & Powerless.

Your Support Matters. Each Life Matters.

I’m reaching out to you in a moment of profound need. My name is Emilia and I am from Poland, and my life has taken me through a whirlwind of challenges that have left me in dire financial and emotional straits.

My Story: I’ve faced significant hardships over the past year, including the loss of loved ones, the loss of a stable job, a tough breakup, and severe depression.

My mental health took a severe hit, leading to our breakup. Left alone with my cat, I faced further devastation when my contract wasn't renewed due to layoffs. I had no savings and had to take out loans to cover rent. Adding to my woes, my ex-boyfriend moved on quickly (new girlfriend after a month after break-up and cut off the contact), leaving me feeling more isolated.

Tragically, I fell victim to investment fraud and lost my remaining money to a malware attack. Despite reporting it to the bank and police, I received no help. Overwhelmed, I returned to my parents' toxic home, where my mental state deteriorated further.

Amidst all this, my parents, with whom I had to move back, refused to let me keep my cat. This has been incredibly painful as he was my companion through the darkest times. For three years, I volunteered to run a temporary home for shelter cats, finding forever homes for six. My cat was initially one of these shelter cats, and I fell in love with him, eventually adopting him (the grey cat in the picture with me when all was good yet...).

Barely surviving on the meager salary that my parents plan to take from me for "their debt" so basically want to charge me for living with them from May 2024 for around 2500 €...

Health struggles:

The problem with my swollen feet began a year ago. Doctors made me wait a long time for tests and refused to give me effective painkillers. I tried NSAIDs as suggested, but they didn’t help. I went to a doctor who prescribed opioids - oxycodone. I took it for a month, and the problem subsided, but I developed a physical dependence. I managed to overcome it but relapsed three more times before finally quitting (which was increadibly painfull but I've managed to do it without any substitute like methadone or buprenorphine). It initially relieved my physical pain, and later I noticed it also helped with my emotional pain, hence the relapses. I attended addiction therapy and still participate in NA self-help meetings. I was managing somehow, but in the meantime, I was raped. I also spent time in a rehab center. I know that asking for help is important and with this fundraiser I would like to enocourage everyone else in similar, tough life situation.

Today? Today I am clean and sober, but I have cravings due to this terrible situation I find myself in, which seems hopeless.

Today? I live. But every day I have suicidal thoughts.

Despite my efforts to rebuild, I now face 2000 € overall in urgent debt (this is not to pay off my parents but an additional amount) to avoid legal action with a bailiff, on top of needing a stable living situation away from the toxicity I face at home. I need your help to cover basic living expenses while I recover and find new employment.

Why I Need Your Help:

1. Pay off urgent debts to avoid legal action. I am not able to work right now, need to recover, my salary will be at last day of the October and I am really afraid that till time they can just come to my parent's home and we will land on the street...
2. I need to go to psychotherapy and a psychiatrist appointment to change antidepressants or get other meds to literelly not commit a suicide.
3. Secure a stable living situation away from toxicity.
4. Cover basic living expenses while I recover and find new employment.

I am ashamed to ask for help, knowing there are many other worthy causes, but this is my honest plea. I promise to update you with proof of debt repayments and show you the impact of your support.

Special Thanks: To show my gratitude, I have prepared special thank-you gifts for donors. This includes new items like a jacket or an original purse, and I can alsosing and can record your fav song, write a poem, sending you my everyday gratitude list that helps with hope and positivity and motivates you to do the same or offer a personal thank-you in your honor. Just email me or leave your contact while donating and I'll get with you in touch.

Looking Forward: I still believe in the goodness of people. Once I am back on my feet, I intend to pay it forward and support others in need. Your kindness today will help me rebuild my life, survive means stay alive literally and staying positive despite the challenges. I send a virtual hug to all people in similar or different but also such a difficult situation. I would appreciate a lot sharing my story with your friends, family, social media etc.

Updates: You can check all proofs of my overdue payments and that's only some of them. I will also attached there screenshot from the conversation with my boss after the last tragic day at work in Germany, describing him everything that happened, if you want to know details about how exactly it was. He hasn't replied till now and probably won't. Moreover, I will update with proofs confirming that I have paid each date from donated money.

If you want to reach out to me, feel free: [email protected]

Trying my best, I know my English isn't perfect like a native language, but I hope it's understandable and that I've presented my situation clearly.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your consideration and support. You can make a difference.

Gratefully, Emilia