Suicidal desire

Hi! My name is Darius I'm 25 and I'm from Romania..lately I've been thinking seriously about the above option...for 2-3 years my life has taken a nasty turn...I've come across the crypto space and I strated with small investments and after getting bigger... meanwhile I lost everything I had and saved to have an even worse future... I got deep into financial institutions that charge 1,5% interest per day (€3000) and bank loans (€4400) plus debts with friends (€2000 in total), I ended up not being able to control anything and the salary I have is not even enough to cover the financial institutions interest per month ... my parents helped me twice and I screw each time thinking that if I invest in crypto I will recover everything I lost... I have no hope left... all the banks are kicking me out of the first one thinking that maybe I have a chance to adjust and refinance... I don't know anymore what to do...I'm in total disbelief...i work now two jobs but mentally i m struggling so bad...i started going to a psychologist and banned myself from every gambel/crypto sites so that îs a start...but the debts îs killing me. If anyone see this and give a Little help, i will never forget IT and i ll try to pay back to You all. Thanks You so much