Thirteen years ago, we lost our first child shortly after birth. After that, I suffered four more miscarriages, which deeply affected me and caused severe mental health issues. I sought help from psychiatric services for a long time, but no treatment brought me real relief.

Following these losses, I was unable to maintain stable employment because I often felt completely broken and exhausted. Life became an endless cycle of pain and despair. I never wanted to burden anyone or ask for help, but eventually, I decided to explore euthanasia abroad since it is not allowed in Slovakia. Unfortunately, this option is financially out of my reach, which only deepens my helplessness.

After some time, I tried to live a normal life and even found a new relationship where I hoped to find some happiness and stability. Sadly, another miscarriage happened, which completely shattered me mentally. Since then, I have not been able to feel comfortable around people and suffer from isolating thoughts.

What troubles me the most is that I cannot work – work was always my way to distract myself from these thoughts and find meaning. Without it, I feel unnecessary, powerless, and misunderstood. While I have various health issues that are not life-threatening, the psychological pain I endure drains me entirely, and no one can take it away.