The situation is that I’m working. I’m self-employed, but I’m grateful that I can at least pay the rent and make it through to next month.This year, I’d love to have a Christmas tree, decorations and everything that goes with it. Unfortunately, I’m not getting any younger and my health is starting to let me down. That’s why I’d like to spend Christmas with my daughters, who haven’t visited me for some time. As if it were the last one. I’m not saying it will be, but as they say: here today, gone tomorrow. I haven’t had a proper Christmas for a few years. No tree, no lights, nothing. My daughters flew the nest and there was no one to celebrate with. Now I have a granddaughter and perhaps my daughter might finally bring her round to show me. I must admit that I wasn’t a perfect mother.😞 I made a mistake because I always found partners who didn’t bring much money into the household, and so after my first divorce, I decided I’d take care of things no matter what. Unfortunately, I spent more time at work than with my daughters. The years flew by, and when they needed me, I was at work. I can’t turn back time, but realising this is important; however, my daughters are stubborn for now and they make sure I know it. I’ve never drunk alcohol, so even at Christmas I picture myself with juice and ice. (Strawberry.) Some might say they work and can’t afford to buy juice 🤣 but no, they never buy anything extra for themselves. I pay for everything that needs paying for and there’s little left over. And it’s not that I have no vices; I do. Coffee and cigarettes. I started smoking a few years ago when I was driving around Europe and there was no time for food. So coffee and cigarettes fill you up for a while. I know everyone has their thing. Life is getting harder and harder; everyone goes through something. I’ve been like this for 10 years now. And no matter how hard-working I am, I’ve experienced both the good and the bad. And it’s good when a person realises their mistakes and tries to put them right. Just don’t expect it to happen straight away. It takes time. And when something bad happens, you have to accept it with humility, because it’s come back for something from the past. Unfortunately, I can’t change the past, but with your help I can change the future. Thank you for letting me get this off my chest. It was just a grain of sand from my life. Thank you all